White Rabbit Candy

I really really really really miss/want this candy:

Cleanse Updates

Hi,

Since we are doing email updates of the Cleanse I feel that it is redundant to put it up here as well.

I rather like the email updates because I can email you WHEN IT HAPPENS – then trying to remember the day at the end…

That’s all I have to say about that…

And – OMG 21 PILLS A DAY?!?!?!!? I’m crazy….

I’m exhausted

Wow. I am so tired right now. The last couple of weeks have drained me. When Dom was in Poland, I was going out everynight…when he got back from Poland it was just as busy:
Lisa and April came over that friday (6/5), then Dom’s friends came up that Saturday.
We went to central CT for sushi the next Tuesday (6/9), my Birthday dinner on Thursday(6/11), I had my review at work that friday (6/12), saturday we went to central CT for Red Robin and BBQ at Carl’s place (6/13), 6/14 – Dom’s dad came over to Brunch and then I drove down to West Milford for birthday dinner with my parents. I drove straight to work this morning and I just want to CRASH!!!My boss is freaking out because we have a meeting with the new CEO tomorrow to talk about our department. I’m pretty nervous too but am willing to do what we need to do. Today is going to a difficult day at work. After work, Dom and I are going to the library to do some studying until 9pm. Then I think I want to collaspe on my bed and die.

 I have been sleeping 10 – 12 hours every night this weekend and it hasn’t made a difference. I think I’m going to sleep again tonight around 9pm and hopefully that should finally do it. This way I will be bright-eyed and bushy-tailed for our meeting tomorrow with the new CEO.

oh. Today is the Cruise deadline. I gotta send out a reminder to all…okay. Just did it.

Tomorrow, my boss and I are meeting with the new CEO of Kobrand to discuss our department. It is soooo freak out time for my boss and I. Wow – I really thought it was going to be general going-over but Kim is leaving NO stones unturned, which means that I am stuck doing the grunt work!! *grunt grunt grunt*

On Wednesday, I have a birthday lunch with my girlie co-workers at a mexican place for lunch. It will be the first time I am able to breathe all week.

Friday – I have an appointment with the Poditrist for my bunion. I was supposed to have an appointment with her last friday, but when I got there, the assistants spent 20 minutes looking for my file. They didn’t have me in the books or anything and then blamed me cause I couldn’t remember who I talked to. xPPP. So I’m trying again this friday morning. Then I’m heading down to Jersey. I am having dinner with Sloane for my birthday and then heading to Lisa’s house for the night. I want to dye my hair and work on costume stuff.

Saturday – All day of costuming (maybe a JoAnn’s run) and Helen’s housewarming party – which turned into a “ohhh…ahhhh….nice apartment – let’s go out and get KBBQ party”. Then back to lisa’s to spend the night. Sunday – hopefully wake up alive and not robbed (can u really ever trust a recovered drugg addict? i kid i kid), lunch at Willowbrook mall, head up to West Milford for Fathers day dinner, go home to Stamford.

Meanwhile, we have to book the cruise, book the flight tickets to KY, pay bills, study, eat healthy (that has been slipping in the last 2 weeks), yoga (pshhhh yea right), and sleep.

I’m feeling insanely overwhelmed right now. I do not think I will finish my costume at the snail pace and that’s very fustrating me. I do not want to rush through it either because I want it to be a legit piece of clothing.

I am super exhausted right now and I don’t think the summer will let up on me……

I am running on pure coca-cola (I a quarter of a way through a 2 liter bottle)

Current Emoticon: (x.x)zzZ Tired

Cell phone on Restriction

My family burned through our cell phone minutes this month.

So – if you need me – call my work number from 9 – 5pm, then call dom from 6 – 9pm. I can use my cell after 9pm.

Or email – which is what we usually do anyways. Or text – I still have lots of text messages.

one step closer…

I made an appointment with a podiatrist next Friday at 11:00am.

I don’t want surgery. I am hoping to help this problem with other methods…

ps – i know this is Karma for me making fun of that girl who goes downstairs at the same time during breaks and she wears a shoe that is like 5 inches higher then her other feet!! I KNO THIS IS KARMA!! and it is a BITCH!!

God – if I promise not to make fun of her anymore – can you please take this away so i can walk and run normally now??

Bunion…le sigh

Hi There,

I believe that I have a bunion. Le sigh.

A couple of weeks (OMG WHY DIDN’T I GET THIS CHECKED OUT EARLIER?!?!) ago, I noticed that my big toe joint was really started to hurt. I thought that I must have strained it or twisted it while running/walking one day and it will go away on its own. It didn’t and now it hurts when I put pressure on it. I tried stretching it and massaging it which helps for a little while, but it always comes back. So I finally googled “big toe joint pain” and GOUT came up and then bunions came up. I’m going to self-diagnose myself with a bunion. My big toe is started to point towards my other toes and there’s a noticeable bump on my joint area.

My big toe joint on the left foot hurts a lot when I walk or put pressure on it. This Saturday during Yoga – my instructor kept correcting my right foot in a lunge. But when it was in the “right” position – my left foot would hurt and my legs would shake. I told her about it after class and as we were walking out – she commented that she could see that my walking gait is strange and when I walk – my knees go all over the place due to the bunion. I had no idea about the change in my walking or posture until she said that.

Now I am sad.

Lisa said that her dad suggested that I get a pumice stone and because it’s like a callus for your joint. I will try it. I am also binding my feet and toes while I sleep to help re-align my foot. I don’t know what else I can do. This is very frustrating and discouraging. I’ve stopped wearing my sneakers (BRAND NEW – wasted money!!) and work shoes (I am now wearing sandals) in hopes that it will correct itself with different shoes.

I really can not deal with the idea that my body is starting to fail me at 24. I REALLY REALLY REALLY can not deal with it. Same feeling when I found out that my teeth grinding was so severe that I’ve worn away my enamel. Or when my doctor told me that my blood-pressure was on the borderline. Or I noticed that my knees were popping…a lot (3 or 4 times a day). CAN NOT DEAL.

It has put me in the funky of all funky moods.

OMG SOOOO CUTE!!!

http://mymilktoof.blogspot.com/

This is one of the CUTEST WEBSITE I have ever seen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love love love love love love love it. Now that’s original.